Thursday, September 20, 2007

Week 2 Weigh In

This week I didn't try nearly as hard, ate more food (but still kept it within reason) and actually lost MORE weight than last week! Go figure! Last week was 2.6 pounds...this week was 3.6 pounds. Yay!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Thursday, Sept. 13th

1st weigh in - 2.6 pound loss

I should be happy with it I suppose...but I'm not. ;-)

I've been SOOOO good this week. Even with starting a new job, with being taken out to lunch twice, and with having donuts and cake in the office. I feel like I earned more than that 2.6 pounds! And my home scale (for the last two days) has said I've lost 5. But it's also almost TOM so that may be messing things up at the scale. I know I'm feeling pretty bloated and crampy. Also, the fact of adding more fiber has me bloated in other ways! Yikes!

But I have faith that I'll hold in there and next week I'll show another good size loss once some of this other stuff goes away.


Tuesday, September 11, 2007

So Proud!

I'm so proud of myself. Yesterday (my first day at a new job)...I managed to stay on program. Even with being taken out to lunch AND with having a german chocolate cake in the department afterwards!

Gotta go!


Friday, September 7, 2007

Friday, September 7th

Just wanted to check in. I did go to the meeting last night. I was nervous that others might be able to see the scale but that wasn't the case. Gone are the days where they weigh you on a doctor's scale with the sliding thing. Now it's a scale but the readout goes to a little screen that only the person weighing you in can see. That's a good thing! LOL!

After weigh in they started the meeting. First they acknowledged any losses for the week or goals met (for each pound loss you get a paper clip, at 5 pounds you get a bookmark, and then I think there are ones for your 10% goal and some others as well). Then the lady talked about dreams and the steps to achieving your dreams.

I was surprised that it really only lasted about 30 minutes. Quick and painless. ;-) Not sure it's worth the $$ each week - but trying weight loss via a group is something I haven't tried yet so I guess it's worth a shot. I really would prefer not to do weight loss surgery but I'm beginning to see that as my only option. So trying out all other avenues first (with group weight loss being something new to try).

After the meeting she met with the new people (3 of us) and went over the two plans, how we figured how many points you were allowed each day, etc.

So, today I officially started counting my points. My dh and I went grocery shopping. $120 later we left the store. Why does it cost so much more to eat healthy?

So far today I've had:

Mt. Dew ( coffee equivalent) 2 pts
1 1/2 c cereal with 4 oz 2% milk 5 pts

Sandwich w/
turkey breast,
1/2 serving of roast beef,
1 TBS light mayo,
and 1/4 c. 2% milk total 8 pts
Pears 1pt

I generally have tried in the past to keep my meals around 8 points. That leaves me with a few extra for snacks and/or a small dessert. Since they've revamped their program I'll actually get more points so I'll probably look at using closer to 10 points per meal in the beginning. As you lose weight your points are adjusted and you'll get less points so you continue to lose weight.

Anyways, just wanted to check in. Have a great weekend!


Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Thoughts on weight

I'm not sure what I'm willing and not willing to share on my blog. I used to believe that most people that read this would be because they know me or are someone who knows someone who knows. So I figured I'd share pictures, etc. But the other night I came across a blog where the sickos actually "hunted" fat people and took pictures of them to post on the blog. Heavy people from all over the U.S. And that really upset me. They call us "FUPA"s and their definition is "A FUPA is a Man or a Woman so afflicted by obesity that their pubic area is used to store patches of soft fatty waste. Often sighted at work, the food court at the mall and Walmart, they can be spotted in families, or occasionally traveling in groups called 'schwaggles'."

Every person has their good and their bad traits. There are people who have metabolisms like a hummingbird and never have to watch what they eat at all...and on the other end there are people with slow metabolisms who don't eat that much but still struggle with weight and then there are all sorts of people in between.

I know, personally, I deal with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) which causes obesity. It's also the reason I went through 7 years of trying to get pregnant and subjected myself to needles, surgery, and everything in between. I can lose a certain amount of weight - but once I get to about 200 pounds my body decides that's IT. And at 200 pounds I'm still obese. At 200 pounds I trained and completed a half marathon. Guess what? I didn't lose any more weight! And at some point I give up because if I'm still going to be 200 and have to starve all day and not eat the foods I love...why bother? If I could weigh even 165 I'd be pretty darn happy...and it'd be worth exercising every day and eating next to nothing. But 200 pounds isn't worth it.

The only time since I was a teenager that I managed to get down that low was doing a diet where I ate 600-900 calories a day...AND I ran 2 miles a day...AND then I passed out in the grocery store...AND then I lost my gallbladder (and $10,000 since we didn't have insurance). Sad thing is, it was still worth it. It was worth it to feel normal. To buy normal size clothing. To fit in all the normal places. To not feel like everyone was looking at me. To be able to wear a 2 piece swimsuit. To go out on dates. (Before marriage days.)

What pisses me off - is we make it worth sacrificing our bodies (ie starving, overexercising, etc) because of people like these creeps with the blog. Because we feel like freaks and they make us feel more like freaks.

This time I'm not going to starve myself. I'm going to go Weight Watchers and I'm going to do it reasonably. But I don't know if it'll be enough. I don't know if I can get below 200. Maybe I should be in a more positive rah-rah mood right now. But I've been here before. What makes this time different?

And as much as I've literally struggled and worked this over the DARE these idiots think this is funny enough to take pictures and further ridicule people like myself (who I'm sure have struggled similarly)?

So, what I've decided to do is that if you want a start picture and update pictures you need to post a comment or send me an email and tell me how you know me (unless I know you well enough not to have to state that info!). If I feel safe enough I'll send pics...if not, no pics for you! I'll also post my losses and gains, but not my overall weight.


Monday, September 3, 2007

Monday September 3rd

I'm not officially starting WW until Thursday night. That will be my first meeting. I'm hoping not everyone will be able to see the scale when you weigh in. When I was in college you all stood in a line and everyone could kind of see what you weighed. I've been told the newer ones you stand on the scale and the readout is shown back where only the worker can see it. Guess we'll find out on Thursday night.

I've also learned that the "points" have changed. With Weight Watchers you are allowed so many "points" per day. Points are determined by the amount of calories, fat grams, and fiber that an item has. The total number of allowed points for each day is determined by your current weight, your age and your activity level in general. (For you work at a desk job or are you a construction worker!) You MUST eat the amount of points that you are allowed...otherwise your body thinks it's starving and holds onto weight. You are also alloted so many "flex points" for the week. These can be used a little here and there...or saved for a special occasion during the week. I believe that these flex points should also be used - but I've never followed the flex program so I'm not certain. They also offer a "core program" where you don't have to count points as long as you only eat the foods on their list...but I think most the foods on the list are yucky so I'll be doing the flex plan. I like that you can eat anything you want as long as it's eaten within reason.

I'm using this week to try and read up on motivation and articles about emotional eating. I believe that 90% of weight loss is in your I'm trying to prepare my mind!

Have a great week! I may check back in sooner...but if not I'll check in on Friday after I've attended my meeting. I haven't decided yet if I'm willing to post my weight on here. I may just post losses and gains (but not the actual weights).